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Tuesday, February 21, 2023

Cytokine Storm

  The Ukraine war has made me aware of how insignificant life on this Earth might be. The period I spent in hospital following a covid infection and a cytokine storm made me realise how remarkable my existence on this planet might be. The experience all but concluded my life, and indeed, many shared my expectations. I am left with no doubt that I had reached the boundary that characterised the point of departure. 


I owe gratitude to the doctors who refused my appeals for them to withdraw and leave me to face the inevitable. I was so sick and in pain that it seemed to be a desirable outcome. 


During the first two weeks of January 2022, I drifted into a completely unknown world. Driven by outrageous dreams and horrifying hallucinations, I felt distressed, solitary and alone, often in a dark, infinite and featureless world. Short-term sensory deprivation sessions can be relaxing; extended sensory deprivation can result in extreme anxiety, hallucinations, bizarre thoughts, and depression. 


One morning, I awoke to find myself in a fantastic coherent world that made sense. I felt invigorated but was nevertheless wholly hindered by the loss of physical strength. There is no doubt that my mind and my sight had suffered the consequences of the experience.


I resolved to continue the struggle and did my best to recover. I had no desire for food, yet I picked out the most protein bearing and nutritious morsels I could find within the meals supplied. During the night, I would plan my next physical endeavour. I might decide to sit at the foot of my bed or walk along the bed clutching at the side rails, but I lacked the strength even to reach the foot of the bed.


Toward the end of January, I was visited by three physiotherapist carers who were to get me up and mobile. I rarely had visits of this nature and insisted that I return home to my family waiting for me. After several exhausting and harrowing events to satisfy the authorities, I and my wheelchair were winched up into a waiting vehicle to return home.


Once home, I was allocated three carer visits daily, evidently, to assist Myrtle. Myrtle's dedication and a more suitable diet nurtured me, and I quickly began to recover my strength. The visiting carers insisted I perform prescribed exercises daily, among other supportive duties.


It is now mid-May, and I am all but thoroughly recovered. I can walk freely about the house and attend to all my basic needs; I prefer to use a rollator or a wheeled walker when walking outdoors.


If I learned anything from my experience, that is to continue my exercises for as long as I live. I am now more mobile and physically stronger than I was before. 


Covid

I had Covid starting in mid-December 2021. I first became aware of it when I collapsed on the bathroom floor. At the time, a lady from Living With Covid called to check on us. On hearing that I had collapsed, the lady caller enquired about my blood oxygen percentage. Fortunately, Living With Covid provided us with a  blood oximeter. 

Upon hearing my blood-oxygen ratio, she was shaken and immediately arranged for an ambulance to take me to a hospital. The ambulance arrived within minutes, and I was placed in isolation upon arrival at the hospital.

I spent some time in this isolation room surrounded by the most depressing wallpaper. An elderly doctor entered, and after encircling my bed, he said, "You may never leave here." He went on to mumble something about intensive care. The staff who attended to my needs wore transparent helmets fed by air from an apparatus slung on their backs.

I was eventually transferred to a ward full of very sick people. I was finally discharged and sent home after two weeks.

I arrived home, and I began to run at a high temperature. At home, we could not control my temperature with the resources available. I returned to the hospital and remained there for the next four weeks. 

I have no recollection of anything during the first week in the hospital. No one could know what I was going through after that; my entire body was wracked with pain, and to cough was agony. The illness had entirely drained my body of strength, and I could only lie wholly paralysed. My mind constantly hallucinated, leading to outrageous dreams. It was so distressing that I have no desire to recall or discuss any of it. 

I would dream of being in an arid landscape of nothing but an endless terrain of nothing. I'd be walking, searching, knowing there was nothing to find, only darkness.

The nursing staff were mainly of foreign birth, knowing sufficient English for the job. Everyone was extraordinarily supportive; nothing seemed to be too much trouble. Still, I think few appreciated what I was experiencing—left to lie in isolation with no contact with the familiar outside world apart from an occasional call from home via the ward telephone.

Because I had no bladder control, the nursing staff constantly changed my bed linen and pyjamas. Meanwhile, other nurses lined up to insert fluids into my ailing body or withdraw the precious content.

Internet access was denied, and no visitors were allowed. I was left to lie and reflect on my imagination and hallucinations. I felt like a caged rat in a laboratory, a living source of research material. It was probably the most horrendous period of my life, mentally or otherwise.

A doctor emerged out of the fog. Leaning over my bed, he exclaimed, "The trouble with you is that you are not cooperating." I had no idea what he was eluding to, for there was nothing much that I could do to please him. I pleaded with a visiting doctor on several occasions to go away and leave me alone and let me slip away peacefully.

After that experience, I was moved to various wards where life continued as before. Physiotherapist nurses were around visiting patients, but I received little more than promises for tomorrow. I had gained a little strength and realised that I should be trying to restore my mobility.

Doctors visited me but rarely spent any time with me. Finally, a doctor informed me that I would be transferred to another hospital when space was available and then to a specialist nursing home.

Early one morning, I was surrounded by three physiotherapist nurses who informed me that they were to get me up and mobile. I had a complete 'meltdown' and said I had as much as I could and would go nowhere except home. 

Peter had come out from Australia to be with the family, while John and Myrtle were eager to have me home. John had bought me a hospital bed, and all were prepared to have me return.

About three days later, late in the afternoon, I was awakened from an afternoon slumber. I was informed that a taxi had arrived to collect me. I was loaded into a wheelchair and finally winched into the back of the waiting vehicle.

It was a late winter's evening, dark and cold, and I was unsure of my destination. The journey took forever; I could not identify landmarks but assumed it was homeward. I texted John as best I could in the jolting taxi to inform the family that I was on my way home.

When we finally arrived after a gruelling journey, I was relieved and delighted to see Myrtle, John and Peter on the curbside waiting for me. However, I wondered how they intended to get me to a bed because  I was emaciated without any vestige of strength. It was a relief to find that the wheelchair could enter the house and take me to my bedside. 

It was now late January 2022; the month had been one of my life's most gruelling periods. Upon my arrival home, I could do very little for myself, but I did begin to recuperate. I steadily recovered, grateful for Myrtle's unwavering love and untiring support. Carers were provided and called thrice daily to assist and oversee my exercises. 

During February 2022, carers would arrive early morning, midday and evening; I seldom felt like tolerating their intrusion while washing or having a shower as they supervised. At first, exercise was such a burden; I knew I had to make an effort to recover and be more self-sustaining. 

Recovery was slow and steady throughout February. In March, I quickly regained strength and could get about quite easily with a walking aid. I could walk down our passage unaided by mid-March, much to my carer's astonishment and delight.

April, I can now walk about normally, except there is an element of weakness in my legs, and my balance is not good. Myrtle and I exercise every morning. Our regular session, provided mainly by the carers, leaves me exhausted. 

I have come so near to the termination of my presence on this ailing planet on more than one occasion I do not doubt that I have a benefactor in some undisclosed and secret place where I will live forever. 

Monday, January 9, 2023

Chapter 1

Introduction

Introduction


GLYN DANIEL KEARNEY

Life Experiences

Introduction

Durban in South Africa was a lively city in 1950, with a different pace of life compared to . . . today's fast-paced digital world. There was no television and cars were a luxury.Young people felt optimistic, and I started my career as a pharmacist trainee. We spent our evenings carefree, enjoying the company of friends and watching movies at the drive-in theatre. The beachfront was a safe place to be, with car-side service for coffee and toasted buns. Formality eagerly expected, with young men and women dressed in their finest clothes, dancing and enjoying the Tudor gaze of the Playhouse cinema. Saturday nights are expected with everyone looking forward to the velvet embrace of the theatre. As my career progressed, I learned how to adapt to the ever-changing world. My story is a testament to the shifting notes of life, and how I learned to embrace change.


Chapter One - 1935

Port Shepstone early years

The story begins with my mother, who was born in Cowbridge, Swansea, and was already in her 40s when I was born. She had moved to South Africa, accompanied by her 12-year-old daughter, shortly after World War I. However, the circumstances of her move shrouded in secrecy and embarrassment, which was typical of the era. Assuming that the anguish of WWI may have been a contributing factor to her relocation to a foreign land as a young woman, which could have been a traumatic experience for her, especially since she was probably rejected by her family.

My father was one of the British soldiers of the South African Mounted Riflemen (SAMR) formed in 1915 during World War I. He was sent to East Africa to fight in the war against Paul von Lettow-Vorbeck. He used to tell me stories about the harsh conditions, the relentless heat and humidity, and the constant threat of disease. But most of all, he talked about the frustration of fighting an elusive enemy who seemed to vanish into the bush, only to reappear and strike when least expected. Disease was another enemy, malaria, dysentery, claiming more men than bullets. The heat, the insects, the endless marching, it wore us down, but we pushed on, driven by stubbornness, a refusal to let von Lettow have it his way.The war against Paul von Lettow-Vorbeck in East Africa took place during World War I, which lasted from 1914 to 1918. Born in 1898, Dad must have been very young. Following his return to South Africa, he joined the South African Police Force in April 1920 as a detective. 

They married on the 25th June 1927 The outbreak of World War II in September 1939 sent ripples through our lives. My father, Detective Sergeant Kearney, moved from Durban where I was born in 1935 to a smaller town on the south coast–Port Shepstone near Durban in 1940. Port Shepstone had a unique flavour. Many settlers, primarily German farmers, called it home. I vividly recall the long journey there in our old Hudson, bumping our way across rickety river bridges. Forget smooth tarmac - the roads were mostly rough gravel or even beach sand. 

Our first stop was Mrs. Batstone's boarding house. Too young for school, I spent my days under her watchful eye while my parents completed the move from Durban. Soon enough, though, Mom found a gem–a lovely house close to the mouth of the mighty Umzimkulu River. Back then, Umzimkulu marked the border between Eastern Cape and Kwazulu-Natal provinces.

Behind our house stretched a vast expanse of pristine coastal bush, merging seamlessly with the river mouth. This became my personal playground, a world to explore. Mom's only rule (a far cry from today's safety restrictions) was to stay away from the river itself. Unfamiliar with the dangers lurking in the African bush, Mom didn't fully grasp the potential risks. I spent countless hours lost in that verdant world, venturing close to the riverbank. There, I'd watch brightly coloured river birds weave intricate nests in the reeds, or mesmerised by chameleons, their colour-changing abilities a source of endless fascination. Of course, with childhood curiosity came a healthy dose of fear. Whispers of the dreaded Black Mamba, a venomous serpent said to slither through the bush, sent shivers down my spine. Thankfully, my encounters involved harmless grass snakes and other less intimidating creatures.

As dusk settled, the landscape transformed into a magical spectacle. Patches of grassland twinkled with fireflies and the gentle glow of glow worms. Even the daisies in our garden seemed like tiny ecosystems, each one housing a beetle at its heart. The chirping symphony of crickets filled the air as the sun dipped below the horizon.Flying ants, those heralds of evening, emerged in buzzing swarms. Males and young queens on a nuptial flight, they'd leave a carpet of spent wings behind, especially near lights. It was a world teeming with life, a constant source of wonder for a curious young boy.


Chapter Two 1940 to 1944

Life in Port Shepstone

Life in Port Shepstone settled into a routine. My mother, ever the patriot, joined the Women's Auxiliary, her days filled with sewing clothes and raising funds for the war effort. Our home often opened its doors to war refugees, offering them a temporary haven. 

My father, a relentless investigator, spent countless nights pursuing elusive criminals. Whether it was investigating swastikas vandalising local roads or German submarines allegedly signalling off the coast, his dedication was unwavering. Unfortunately, to my knowledge, he never succeeded in capturing a submarine.

By the time I reached school age, however, a different storm was brewing within me. Looking back, it's clear I was an insecure child. What we now understand as autism and learning difficulties  labelled as daydreaming and inattentiveness. Unsurprisingly, punishment became my constant companion from day one. School was a battlefield, and I resisted its rigid structure with every ounce of my being.

Even today, the details of that experience remain etched in my memory. The headteacher's imposing figure, his office a place of dread. The veranda on the side, a makeshift punishment zone where I'd be a solitary figure yearning for understanding. These were the harsh realities of my school life between the ages of seven and nine.


Chapter Three - 1945 to 1949

Back in Durban

WWII ended on May 8th, 1945, but the world remained a fractured place. We returned to Durban at the end of 1945, and the new school I found myself in offered no refuge, only a different battlefield. Here, the enemy wasn't war, but a sea of orphans wrestling with their own grief and loss.

My teacher, Miss Thompson, stands out in my memory: a thin woman with gaunt cheeks painted a harsh red with rouge.  Every day seemed to bring a fresh batch of mistakes on my part, each one leading to an inevitable call to the front of the class for punishment.  Her weapon of choice was a three-foot-long cane, wielded with a venom that defied her frail frame.  I can still see her drawing herself up, taking a deep breath before unleashing a blow with such force that it seemed to lift her off the ground.

But the cane wasn't the only torment I faced. Being the "new kid" in a school filled with hungry orphans made me a prime target. Every break was a gauntlet of bullying, a relentless assault fueled by a mix of hunger and cruelty. The vast playing fields became our hiding place, a corner far from the watchful (or perhaps nonexistent) eyes of any teachers. Many, it seemed, were yet to return from the war.

Returning home with bruised arms and blue cheeks, I'd face my father's concerned questions. The answer, however, was always the same: "Be a man."  It was a simple yet brutal solution, offering no comfort or protection in the face of relentless torment.  Those were the harsh lessons learned in the hallways and on the playing fields of my new school–lessons of survival, not education.

During my first year in that school I ran an unfathomable temperature. A doctor, summoned to our home and all I can remember was his presence in my room. I remember nothing else until I awoke and found myself in a hospital ward with a pile of Bugs Bunny comic books on the table beside my bed. I do not know how long I remained in hospital or even any recollection of other children in the ward. 


After a period, I returned to school and as far as I can recollect, life was less harsh. For me, from that time on all is unclear. I know that my mother arranged for me to go to an alternative more cultured school but my memories are vague and I can only recall part of the first year in that school and the many afternoons that I had to remain after school to reconstruct earlier work, particularly Afrikaans language.


My experiences set the stage for the future of my entire school career. Not intentionally but I kept my distance from anything that looked like a teacher, I enjoyed no connection with teachers and viewed other boys with suspicion. I had few friends and found ways and means to entertain myself. My new school focussed heavily on sport and that meant further harassment and punishment for noncompliance. I hated rugby and thought it to be a barbaric pastime. I could never see the sense in cricket while standing in the field waiting for a leather bound ball to come my way. I was far away in my world when a ball came flying by.


While writing this account of my past, I realise that I have a very scant recollection of the events from the time of my hospital experience late 1946 to early 1949.My parents were always on the move. When my mother sold the house in Port Shepstone, she realised she could make money buying and selling houses. We were always on the move occupying, renovating and selling houses. I lived mostly with my sister and her husband and therefore never settled down to a life in a home of my own


Chapter Four - 1950 to 1953

High school years

I had just completed my end-of-school examinations and was ready to face the real world. Two years earlier, I had written the school leaving examination, and I had failed. Upon returning to school to repeat the failed year, The head teacher summoned me and gave me the choice of being promoted or repeating the failed examination. He reminded me that if I failed my end-of-school examination, I would have neither a school leaving nor a university entrance certificate.

This momentous event was quite unanticipated. One might expect that having to make a decision of this nature required consultation with parents or guardians, but I instantly agreed.

I was living with my sister and her husband at the time. I had no idea where my parents were living or what they were doing. 


Living in this world, I was truly an alien. No one understood me, and neither did I understand the objectives and values of the neurotypical. When Leo Kanner's 1943 paper on autism was published recognising autism as a separate condition, the world was not ready to accept or understand the gravity of the situation. All my life, I have lived a life of indifference and mostly responsible for my own destiny.  

I was never in an institution-like environment or intensely supervised. At all  times at home I was left to pursue my own interests that by no means was commensurate with the norm. The family comment was that if you wanted to know how Glyn was doing at school you started at the bottom of the published exam list. 

I never understood the concept of competition. I just did what I resolved to do without seeing a coming examination, for example, as a challenge but something that had to be done.

I had no friends with whom I could consult. On being in the vicinity of the pharmacy school after completion of my school career back in 1954, I resolved to register and qualify as a pharmacist. In spite of the myriad of unsuccessful students in circulation, I was undaunted and finally qualified as a professional pharmacist in 1959.

Finally, with no great effort, I passed the South African final year matriculation school examination, the minimum university entrance requirement. I favoured a career in Pharmacy although I think I would have preferred to study chemistry for I was mad about science.


Chapter Five - 1954 to 1959

Pharmacy training.

While registering to study pharmacy, I met a school friend who was known to be one of the brighter pupils. He knew me quite well and advised me to reconsider my choice of career as he was convinced that it was quite the wrong occupation for me. My family were not convinced about my career choice but in spite of their lack of confidence in me they still left me to my own devices and possibly not expecting me to enrol for pharmacy. At the time, pharmacy was thought to be one of the more difficult careers and, probably, there was some truth in it for there were many who struggled for years to pass the examinations or else withdrew.

I can still vividly recall the day I went to purchase my text books. I have a clear vision of the bookstore in the Durban high street, “Griggs Booksellers” was its name. I remember the young fellow who served me, he had to help me pronounce the word “pharmaceutical”. Looking back, I cannot believe I took life so casually yet I cannot boast of being confident or apprehensive. As I think about that period, I am reminded of my school years, my attitude to life and my destiny.

I can distinctly recall my first pharmacy lecture. Where I arrived without pen or paper. The lecturer strode in and delivered his lecture and at. the end he gathered his papers and departed leaving me feeling rather stunned. I sat in the empty lecture room and realised how alone I was. There was no one that I knew and all departed without a nod.

I had to serve a three-year apprenticeship prior to a full year terminating in a qualifying examination. An intermediate examination was necessary either a full year at college or two years’ part-time study during the apprenticeship period. I chose to study for the Intermediate examination during my apprenticeship years. I worked six days a week in order to pay for my lectures at the Pharmacy School and attended lectures three nights a week thus saving a year.  There were no University courses for Pharmacists in those days. My parents gave me a small car as there was no bus transport at night and the College was miles away from home. There was little time for pleasure as I had to work extremely hard. I had realised that I was not going to get by on minimum effort. I was delighted when I passed my final qualifying examination before my school friend who had advised me to choose another career.

Apprenticeship Years

During my apprenticeship, I worked in a dispensary surrounded by many stock bottles. Each bottle contained a solution of a medicinal chemical or compound used for dispensing doctor’s prescriptions. At the time it was not uncommon to dispense many medicinal mixtures for internal and external use. Technology and mass production had not yet been introduced. Each preparation would be individually compounded with at least 4 or 5 active ingredients and a sweetener or a flavouring would be added to make it more palatable. Dispensers needed to be extremely alert and not become confused while working under pressure. The measurement system used was grains, minims and drams. The doctor would order ingredients per dose and the dispenser would have to mentally calculate how much was needed of each ingredient for the number of doses prescribed. There were no calculators to assist with the calculations either. The pharmacist needed a good knowledge of chemistry to avoid mixing chemicals that might react negatively with one another in the bottle. Pharmacy was certainly a profession.

Bottles containing tinctures and infusions made from herbs to make medicinal mixtures lined the walls while oils and fats used for making ointments or emulsions for the skin were kept at a lower level. Many creams, ointments and lotions were prescribed and it needed professional skill and knowledge with a mortar and pestle to blend oil and water. They do not normally mix easily and it took hours of practice to learn the skill of knowing just where in the mortar the pestle would shear the oil globules small enough to be carried in suspension in an emulsion. Just the right flick while mixing was important to attain a successful dispersion for a smooth emollient.

There were a few proprietary pills, tablets and mixtures available for prescription use while many doctors had favourite recipes of their own.  Each morning as I entered the dispensary I relished the smells of eucalyptus and menthol among the others. It was much like an adrenalin rush, and a feeling of satisfaction that I enjoyed. It was an adventure and not just a job.

Every prescription dispensed had to be recorded by hand in a large prescription book. My first job of the day was to enter all the names and page numbers in the index for future reference. Labels giving directions were handwritten on gummed paper and either licked or moistened before fixing to the container.

I applied myself with my new found self-awareness and soon earned the privilege of being deemed trustworthy and someone of integrity who could open the pharmacy on time in the morning, and do the dispensing unaided and unsupervised apart from when dispensing hazardous material.

I finally reached my goal after years of toil at the end of 1959. 





Saturday, December 3, 2022

Chapter 2


Where to from here?


I was now 17 going on 18 and had passed my driving licence test. As a celebration, I was coerced into taking my Mother away for a holiday. We went off for a holiday in the Drakensberg mountains, and while away, I received news that I had passed the matriculation examination.


As a child of about ten years of age, I stood and watched a Pharmacist at work dispensing prescriptions. He measured liquids and mixed powders using a mortar and pestle. Given my interest in science and chemistry, I liked the idea. Now thrust into a world with unlimited opportunity, I needed to be more mentally ready to embrace the unavoidable.


Being in the city, one day, near the College where the pharmacy school was located, I decided to visit the registration office. I made a spontaneous decision to enrol to be trained as a pharmacist. My family knew nothing about this. I had just completed the registration when a friend from school walked in. My Father knew his family; he was one of the most promising pupils at school, and he knew me well. His uncle was a Pharmacist.


Aghast, he stood for a moment and looked at me. "Glyn, he exclaimed, this is not for you!" Too late, I said, registration is all done and complete.


Little did I know then, but pharmacy and accountancy were among the toughest to achieve back then. Thousands of unsuccessful students were roving the country looking for jobs or apprenticeships.


I registered for the intermediate examination course to be taken over two years at the same time as doing a pharmacy internship. A final year had to be done after the three-year apprenticeship in a pharmacy. I cannot recall what made me commit to the endeavour. But upon reviewing the incident, I realised that the experience was another assurance of divine intervention. My friend chose to do the internship and the two-year full-time separately.


I can still vividly recall the day I went to purchase my textbooks. I have a clear vision of the bookstore in the Durban high street, "Griggs Booksellers" was its name. I remember the young fellow who served me; he had to help me pronounce the word "pharmaceutical". Where the money was coming from, I still needed to learn. 


Pharmacy internship.


My Father had an acquaintance with a pharmaceutical wholesaler. Together, they found me a job in a pharmacy on the Durban high street. It was a bustling shop, and to be expected; I was given the most menial of tasks. Most aspiring pharmacists would have rejected the position. 


This opportunity was another divine intervention. The job fitted me; I could cope and be happy doing it. I received and priced goods for the first year and did that well. I had no great expectations and attended College three nights a week, including a Thursday afternoon. That was a total of 12 hours.


I can distinctly recall my first pharmacy lecture. I arrived without a pen or paper. The lecturer strode in and delivered his lecture, and at the end, he gathered his pieces before departing, leaving me somewhat stunned. I sat in the empty lecture room and realised how alone I was. That was the turning point of my life! 


 There was little time for pleasure, and I had to work particularly hard. I then realised that I would need more effort to get by. 


My parents provided a small car as there was no bus transport at night, and the College was miles away from home. I drove this little car until it wore out. In the end, it used about as much engine oil as petrol. 


Whenever possible, I would escape and go walking in the Drakensberg mountains. I often walked alone, sometimes staying at the Himeville Hotel with my study books. The hotel was little more than a wood and iron structure back then, different from the plush luxury hotel at Sani Pass as it is now.


Looking back, I had a strange tendency not to be concerned about the future. I didn't seek status; I unquestionably went with the flow. I just took life as it materialised. 


Despite being within the higher standards at school, I never took anything seriously. I spent most of my time in an old shed in the back of our garden. Uninterrupted, I spent time constructing my electric train layout decorated with paper mulch mountains and tunnels. 


I dabbled with chemicals and mixed explosive concoctions to make fireworks. I did very well making flares of different colours. There was a shop in the city that sold chemicals and laboratory equipment where I could buy all I needed, no questions asked. That was in 1950, before all the regulations that were to come. I made glass distilling equipment to distil essential oils from roses and flowers.


I was very much alone in the shed; no one ever visited or took any notice. I now admit that what I did was dangerous and reckless, and I cannot recall where I gained the knowledge to do it. The same about my school examination preparation; while others were frantically preparing for the final examination and interviewing teaching staff regarding future careers, I was busy in the shed.


I lived with my sister, Molly, and her husband during that period. I was considered somewhat eccentric, being in a world of my own, and left to my own devices, whatever they might be.


The pharmacy's boss and deputy were demanding, but they soon learned I was very used to that behaviour. This opportunity was another divine intervention. The job fitted me; I could cope and be happy doing it. 


I spent the first year in the stock room minding my own business. In those days, a pharmacist compounded almost all medicines and recorded the details in a large prescription book. Gradually I was given odd tasks in the dispensary, like mixing ointments that the pharmacist had prepared and ready for mixing and packing or indexing the prescription book.


Slowly I began to undertake more of the dispensing until  I could do all the dispensing alone. By the end of my apprenticeship, I had the keys to the shop and would open it ready for business in the morning. 


It was a fascinating period before branded products began to take over. I was fortunate to have had the experience; I made many medicinal products, from pills to suppositories.


Finally, my apprenticeship concluded, and I returned to college for full-time study. After a year of study, I became a fully-fledged pharmacist. Interesting to note that the friend who advised me to find an alternative occupation still had a year of study ahead of him. He had elected to do his apprenticeship and then two years of study. I passed the equivalent of the first year while doing my apprenticeship.





Monday, May 16, 2022

Chapter 3

For a period, I continued working in the pharmacy, where I had done my apprenticeship. I was taking a walk during a lunch break when I met Evan. We had attended Pharmacy School together and became pharmacists at the same time. He informed me that he was about to depart for Europe on holiday and work for a spell.

I decided there was no reason I shouldn't do the same. I sought the Union-Castle Mailship office near where I worked and booked a passage on the Athlone Castle Mail Ship. It so happened that we ended up on the same ship and in the same came cabin—it was nothing like the luxury of today, more like a railway coach with bunk beds.

The journey consisted of a three-week cruise from Durban, South Africa, stopping at East London, Port Elizabeth and Capetown. In 1958, flying to the UK was tedious; it included many refuelling stops along the way and took a couple of days. When I returned to SA by plane 18 months later, I found it a monotonous journey flying for hours just above the African Savannah. In the Congo, the plane was surrounded by troops while it received the necessary servicing. By today's standards, it seems so very mundane. Still, it was quite an experience.

To travel by sea and experience the excitement of the farewells as the ship departed added meaning to life. The bonding and emotions expressed between friends and family were often heartfelt. At the same time, all were allowed on board until the ship departed. The period on the ship allowed time to meet many young, inspiring people with diverse objectives; it was the most exciting.

Our journey terminated at Southampton, where we were given a bus to the Overseas Visitors Club in London. Upon arrival at the Club, I found the place teeming with South Africans and young people worldwide. Evan found a convenient room to rent near the Club in Earl's Court. I didn't have much money and was keen to find a job. However, I was persuaded to join a group of eight South Africans to tour Europe.

I was unwell for the last two days of the voyage and the first 2 or 3 days in London. In the meantime, the trip was planned in my absence. The first I knew of it was that I was to go and collect one of the two hired cars. Visits had been made to the AA and a tour route concluded. The route involved going North from Calais in France where we landed in Stockholm in Sweden. From there, back down South through Central Europe via Switzerland, Austria and as far as Sorrento in Southern Italy. We were to return to London via the French Rivera. In all, we travelled 8000 miles in 8 weeks. 

Everybody had prepared themselves for the journey except me. On the way to collect the car, I hurriedly visited an ex-army supply shop and purchased a “less than appropriate” sleeping bag. I had no idea what I was about to encounter and had to put up with it for the rest of the trip.

Wednesday, December 8, 2021

 One evening while working at an emergency medicine depot in South Africa, a customer mentioned that I should apply for a job recently advertised in the local newspaper. I was a little late, but I nevertheless applied for the job. The interviewer knew me and much of my past; the meeting was informal and short.

The job was for a manager of a wholesale pharmaceutical distribution warehouse. Some days later, a  letter confirmed the appointment, and my title would be the “Managing Director”.  There was no mention during the interview about me being a director. I realised, then, that I would be accountable to the Pharmaceutical Council for the business’s conduct. However, the salary offered was somewhat better than I had been earning in the past.


I was not too happy about the omission and often wondered if it had been deliberate. Shortly before commencing the job, I visited the young lady pharmacist who was departing. She told me that if I ever saw the boardroom, I would be fortunate. Sure enough, the first meeting came, and it went without notification. It seemed that all that I was to do was receive orders for habit-forming drugs and maintain the registers.


Well, that was a lot worse than standing in a dispensary, counting tablets all day. On my first day, I took a walk around the warehouse and concluded that I had never seen such chaos and filth. I preferred a chemist shop’s orderliness and tidiness and dispensary, hardly an environment for me.


I concluded that I would be out of this job at the first opportunity. The sooner, the better, not realising I would be there for the next 25 years.


I set about reorganising the motorcycle dispatch; it was chaotic. The constant commotion was too much to bear. Regardless of anyone's feelings and disregarding any possible repercussions and objections, I did it my way.


I divided the city, Durban, South Africa, into several areas that contained an equal number of probable delivery points. Ladies who recorded telephoned customer orders received a list of chemists within a selected area. Instead of waiting for incoming orders, they had to call a chemist within that area every hour. Each location had a specific deadline, and they could not accept anything after the deadline. Similarly, the motorcycle dispatch had a departure time for each area.


The result was that despatch received delivery departures in batches. Each driver realised that it was necessary to return without delay because there would be new batches waiting. Chemist shops were now getting an hourly delivery that suited them very much. So much so, small wholesaler groups and a couple of larger wholesalers within the city became deprived of sales and began closing their doors.

Arguments were raised suggesting that because of changes to the corporate strategy, it would have happened anyway. As far as I could see, it was unlikely to happen for some time if at all.


I inherited the resultant mayhem. My telephone was going berserk with wrong orders, errors and missing goods. To add to the confusion customers were angry because they could only order ethical or prescription items for motorcycle delivery.


When I started my new job, I was stunned by what I found during my initial walkabout. The CEO and the company’s Chairman, regarded as astute members of the pharmaceutical profession, were not expected. The omission of the mention of being a Director seemed to me to be even more intentional.


While working in the retail environment, this company was the worst ever. I never used its services unless it was the last resource, now I knew why! 


Empty medicine and cough lozenge containers littered the top of the fixtures. Staff had arranged cartons of bulk stock with a central well for an occasional hideaway. Everything was so casual, order clerks sat chatting and knitting before answering an occasional incoming call to record an order. Management and senior staff would help themselves to antibiotics and other drugs at the first sign of a sniffle. Medical representatives had free access to roam about the warehouse presumably to check on their products.


At 5 p.m. most days, the Admin Manager or General Manager, whatever he was would unscrew the top of a whisky bottle and throw the cap over his shoulder. Most days he would be joined by whisky bearing visitors, mostly medical representatives.


The worst was the elderly lady at the motorcycle dispatch who spent the day screaming at the insolent motorcycle drivers who would go out and return when it suited them. There was a so-called manager at bulk goods dispatch who went jogging at every opportunity, and he spent the rest of the day standing and watching the world go by at the van dispatch door.


I had no idea what level of authority was vested in me. I decided to take the initiative and reorganise the dispatch of the motorcycles.


I set about reorganising the motorcycle dispatch. The constant commotion was too much to bear. Regardless of anyone's feelings and disregarding the possible repercussions and objections, I did it my way.


I divided the city into several areas that contained an equal number of probable delivery points. Each Order Clerk was issued with a list of chemists within an area. Instead of waiting for incoming orders, they had to call a customer within an area every hour. Each area had a specific deadline, and nothing could be accepted for an order after the deadline. Similarly, dispatch had a specific departure time for each area.


The result was that despatch received deliveries in batches. Each driver then realised that it was necessary to return because there would be new batches waiting. Chemist shops were getting an hourly delivery and that suited them very much. So much so, small wholesaler groups and a couple of larger wholesalers within the city were deprived of sales and began closing their doors.


Apart from some order clerks objections, there were no repercussions. Sales took off and bedlam ensued. Nothing would be the same again. The warehouse was far from prepared for such unforeseen changes.


Arguments were raised suggesting that because of changes to the corporate strategy, it would have happened anyway. As far as I could see, it was unlikely to happen for some time if at all.


I inherited the resultant mayhem. My telephone was going berserk with wrong orders, errors and missing goods. To add to the confusion customers were angry because they could only order ethical or prescription items for motorcycle delivery.


Our order assembly staff was composed of a variety of different ethnic groups. There were about 10 African men assembling orders. Unknown to me at the time, they all walked out, I should have joined them. I have no idea of why they departed and I still don’t know why. They returned about an hour later belligerent and hostile. We rapidly closed the security doors for safety, they were all dismissed without further ado.


I am not sure who was customarily responsible for employing staff replaced with Indian men who lived in shacks alongside the Umgeni River. They were illiterate and relatively useless. A few days after employing them, the river came down in flood and swept all their shacks away.


All this was taking place in the early 1970s. The Internet was an unlikely fantasy, telephone calls to the UK and Europe were excessively expensive and avoided if possible. Even to call Johannesburg, one might have to go through a number of telephone exchanges before being connected. 


We had an early IBM computer almost as big as a small car with a removable disc. The disk was about 18 inches in diameter. I have no doubt that its capacity and capability were no match for the telephone in our pockets today. There were no screens or monitors, all input to the memory of the computer was by means of small cards that the machine could read. To create an invoice for a customer, cards were attached to the order form that was used to assemble the order. When the order was complete, the attached cards were fed through the machine.  The invoice was then printed before being merged with the waiting box of goods.


The system was unbelievably clumsy and slow. As can be imagined, it was nowhere near adequate for the demands of the current situation. Within a short period, the number of order clerks grew from about 4 or 5 to 16 all using IBM electronic typewriters. The number of motorcycles also grew in number, roughly by about as much



It was all an absolute nightmare. The Yamaha motorcycles, made in Japan, all looked very good lined up at the beginning of the day. They appeared sturdy and robust but they frequently broke down. I had to keep an emergency crew on standby to continue delivery or replace a tyre. 


Considering the staff’s attitude toward drivers that walked out and the belligerent nature of the drivers in the past, I could never be sure whether the punctures were the result of poor quality rubber or if the drivers intentionally rode on underinflated tyres. Anyway, it all contributed to the prevailing unrest.


Bulk deliveries for multiple destinations were collected daily and distributed by an independent carrier. The volume was not substantial and a somewhat casual affair. I made the same changes as I had made for the motorcycles and business exploded. After a period we had a fleet of something like 25 Volkswagen vans governed by the same staggered departures.


In the midst of all this, some of our senior managers and board members departed for Europe.  I can recall sending them a cable informing them that we had taken a record one million Rand in one day. In those days it was a lot harder to reach one million in sales than today. I don’t remember any stirring of emotions as a result.


There was constant resistance to change or to spend money. I remember saying to one of our senior managers, “If you seek to run this business Mickey Mouse style then you can expect it to be a Mickey Mouse business.” We were not friends and never were


There was so much that needed change


The machine-readable cards used for creating an invoice carried our cost and selling price for each item. Cards returned to the computer room along with order forms were sorted and old cards removed. There were many nevertheless bearing wrong prices and were still in circulation, a bad system entirely. 


I could never come to terms with this. The warehouse was loaded with cards alongside the products they represented. Some were new while others were old and carried the wrong prices. I was not officially in charge of the computer staff or anything else for that matter. The staff would sit and play cards during a lull in demand for their attention.


I had become friendly with a young IBM sales representative. I remember his name, Norman. He had red hair. I discussed the problem with him but he said that he could do nothing about it.  At the time of purchasing the present computer, management had resisted the inclusion of any other than essential software.


It made no sense considering the volume of cards that had to be purchased and then discarded when they became obsolete. 

Added to that, the cost of labour and time spent sorting and replacing cards on the racks alongside the products. It also invited many errors.


There was no doubt that ensuring correct prices would have had a significant effect on profits.


I knew nothing about computers, I asked Norman if there was anything I could do, perhaps learn to program. He turned up a few days later and informed me that he had loaded a very basic system that would solve my problem. It was basic, indeed, carrying only a product number, the cost and selling price. I had no idea whether it had been sanctioned by management or not, he never told me.


Thank you, everyone, for your good wishes on my birthday. Time has passed so quickly that I have been out of touch with my normal routine.  John, Liza and the children made such a fuss of me that I have had little time to be myself.


To get back to my story where I left off, I had just been provided with a computer programme that could record and provide reliable cost and selling prices.


At least it was a step in the right direction. It did not, however, eliminate the cards, they were still necessary for the generation of invoices. A team of university students was brought in and given the task of researching and listing many thousands of products together with their current prices. 


It had been a mammoth task and had taken us to within a few days of Christmas. I happened to meet our current Chairman on the front stairwell and he instructed me to discontinue the project forthwith. I could understand that he was concerned that things might have gone wrong at a bad time.


I argued that much time and money had been spent and that students would not be available after Christmas. Besides, there was a probability that many prices would change in the new year. He turned away, angrily, saying, “Be it on your own head!”


All went well and without a hitch. My ‘head ‘ was safe for now although not filled with the pleasure of being thanked or appreciated. It all seemed so weird, so surreal. I was never really employed for this. It all developed naturally, one thing following on from the other.  


At about this time, perhaps about 1975, I suggested that I should attend a seminar sponsored by the National Wholesale Druggists Association in America. When I arrived in America, the customs officials were so delighted with my visit. I was locked in a room while they investigated this drug-dealing organisation. 


The seminar venue was impressive, a large hotel and it included a sunset boat trip on the local river. An astonishing sight greeted me as I entered the conference room. There were rows of table-top computers of all shapes and sizes. I had never seen a computer, only the thundering old ‘beast’ in our warehouse. At best, in those days, we had a handheld adding machine that could add, subtract and multiply… how about that!


I returned home fired up with excitement and enthusiasm. Upon giving my colleagues an account of all that I had experienced, I was told to calm down...it would never happen. “There was not a single pharmacy in the city that could afford a computer let alone understand it.”


I couldn't believe it, I had just gazed upon an array of inert,  little beasts awaiting an opportunity to change our lives forever. They could record prescriptions, save them in memory before printing labels and calculating the price. They were enabled with spreadsheets, word processors and many of our normal basic needs.


I found the lethargy and short-sightedness of my colleagues so demeaning. There was so much resistance to everything. I felt that they could not see the future any more than they could see their own toenails. It was not that I had suddenly appeared with a wand in my hand.


Perhaps it was my INTJ personality type, a strategist or rational thinker. I had no great knowledge, only awareness and vision for facilitation.


I suppose if nothing else it was quite an exciting time for me. As time went on, I discovered that our buying clerks wrote all orders for the purchase of stock in longhand. No such thing as a computer or printer. Most of our suppliers were situated in Johannesburg, 570Km away.


Having determined the necessary stock to buy, orders were posted at the local post office. There were numerous suppliers so many letters were posted the next day. With exceptions, they were posted by normal post, it meant they went to Johannesburg by overnight train. Allowing for sorting and delivery there was considerable delay.


At the time, there was no overnight road delivery from Johannesburg, it was not permitted. Upon receipt of an order, a supplier would assemble the order and have it delivered to the local goods railway station. With luck, the order might be in time to catch an overnight goods train. There were further delays while the train was unloaded at its destination. Then, among the goods destined for others, we would get our delivery. It could take up to 3 weeks for an order to be received after the order was originally composed. 


 Consequently, I ordered a Telex Machine to transmit orders by telephone only to be informed that not many of our suppliers had a telex machine.  No one seemed to be aware of a telex machine. A telex machine was a large heavy contraption that could produce a paper strip with punched holes. The holes represented the order that had been entered on the keyboard. When fed back through the machine it could transmit the order to a similar machine at the other end. 


Eventually, overnight road deliveries were permitted and the telex machine became obsolete being replaced by a fax machine.


Bye the way, we are still in the 1970s. Now in 2020, just 50 years later it is all about ‘just in time’ and any delay can cause a crisis. The delay caused by Brexit and Covid resulted in as many as 5000 trucks being queued up waiting to cross the channel and enter France. We have come a long way in just 50 years.

 

To get back to the account of my career, having installed the telex machine there were no further immediate changes that involved me. The company was growing and we were severely short of space. We purchased the building on our left. Since the two buildings were about 2 metres apart, we connected them with mechanical conveyors. It was not the best solution but it was better than nothing.


The ground floor of the new building had been used for meat processing, producing polony and other meat products. Before we could occupy the building, we had to clean it. The floor was so filthy, we used fire hoses to flush it out.


Shortly after the clean-up had begun, I decided to go and see how things were progressing. I was stunned by the sight that confronted me. Being a large volume of water from the fire hoses, the street outside and the street gutters were running red with blood-stained water.  


I vowed never to eat polony or related meat products again. While there are times when I am obliged to eat them, it is never with much relish. 


The road at the back of the main building was level with the first floor. Incoming goods were delivered to the back and then filtered down to the operational floors. It was customary to unload delivery trailers using a team of labourers. It was hard to believe that no one had seen the light and purchased a fork truck to unload a pallet of goods at a time with one person.


Worse still, the goods were sent to the lower floors, carton by carton, down a chute. If the team of labourers on the lower floors were not attentive, cartons would smash into each other. It was not unusual to find one’s self walking in a sticky mess on the floor.


I could not believe that before my day, none of the management had taken the trouble to do something about it. I requested that the chute be dismantled and a mechanical hoist installed. Amidst mild resentment and quiet mutterings of ‘funny guy’ and ‘gadget man’, I finally had it my way.

 

Our order assembly staff were making many errors. Our one-hour delivery service was having many unforeseen consequences. Many pharmacies had grasped the opportunity to carry less stock. They learned to rely and depend on replenishment within an hour.


If they had made a promise to fulfil a prescription within the hour and they received the wrong item, I was always to blame. I was exhausted and so was my telephone. I always had to listen to a long account of how embarrassing it was or that they had lost business.


I would appeal to my doctor for help with my migraine headache that always reserved a Sunday to express itself. His reply would be that he could not help until I found another job.


Tommy, my dear old Tommy, was always on standby. He was so obliging and ready to repair the damage. He would commandeer any transport available and dash off to make reparation. Also, Barbara who understood and was always great support, she would work long hours without additional benefit. .

I was given assistance, usually a friend of the management, but it was never successful because having a relationship with the hierarchy, they always presumed to have co-management powers. I simply did not have time for conversations. It was made worse by them expressing opinions elsewhere. I think that my colleagues were not aware of the split-second timing that was necessary. They were aware of the money but not the volume of goods being processed.


All the insignificant wholesale suppliers within the city had terminated their businesses including an old established wholesaler. The last remaining powerful wholesale supplier was feeling the pressure but it survived because it dealt in sundry goods as well. The termination of these businesses increased the demand for items considerably.


Something had to be done about the picking errors. I composed a short, easily understood, document and called upon some of the more competent pickers to read it and to describe the content. The result was shocking, they were hopeless...and useless. I was not responsible for staff employment and I was treading on dangerous ground.

I discussed the problem with Myrtle, my wife, a remedial teacher. We decided that we should test for reading age before employing staff. It was going to be tricky for the fellow selecting staff was not that much more sophisticated. However, we conducted a trial run and found the reading age among potential employees to be unattainable. 


While in the process of searching for suitable test material, we found a booklet that had several tests for reading skills. It had a short passage of text followed by several questions that tested reading and comprehension.


That seemed to work very well and Myrtle continued to test potential employees. It was not intended to be a permanent job but only an initial investigation. 


As expected, Myrtle was chastised for her view by our CEO who considered the idea to be absurd. However, we continued with the project for about a month. Finally, I had to ask Myrtle to withdraw.  One of the pharmacist ladies, who was employed with the intention of helping me generated a dispute in that we were favouring Christians.


As a consequence, we trained a young Indian lady, Maya, to continue with the project and it proved, over time, to be most successful. Maya was instructed to be impartial when confirming suitability. The Christian population continued to grow and many of the staff generated from that era remained with me for more than 5 years.


Upon making a tour of the warehouse one morning I noticed a stranger in the computer room. This Person Introduced himself as our new DP Manager. I was delighted and commented that there was much to be done. He looked at me and exclaimed: “I am not a programmer.” I was deflated.


Well, I pondered, what is he going to do with himself apart from giving me advice and attempting co-management. 

At least I could have been introduced to him. I am supposed to be the “Managing Director” yet I am treated with contempt.


I was completely disillusioned and retreated to my office. What would have become of this business if I had not used my initiative and hit the ‘starter button. I could as easily have continued in the steps of my predecessor. The business would have continued at a modest pace as before. At the time of my employment, I am sure nothing more was expected of me. None other than being responsible to the Pharmacy Council for good pharmaceutical conduct. A very boring job at best!


I applied for the position of pharmaceutical warehouse manager and inherited the title of Managing Director. It was probably a requirement of the Pharmacy Council that the managing person should be a participant of the Board. However, the whole fiasco was a matter of delusion, deception and deceit. I probably would not have remained without the perceived authority to do what I did..


Changing the structure of the company and making it more attractive with an exclusive profit-sharing scheme is not enough. Considering the wide range of prescription medicines, pharmacies would welcome an efficient service to avoid carrying extensive stock. The service provided before I was employed as the worst imaginable. 


From my perspective, it was folly to assume that the change in company policy had resulted in the surge of sales. However, I have no doubt that what happened bolstered the social and professional ego of the Chairman and those who served on the Board.


Thank you, Frances, for your sticker. I think that you, more than any other person could appreciate what I have written. You worked for the organisation for a number of years at the same time as i did . You must have an in-depth understanding of the situation.


I mulled over this subject for some time before writing it. 

I could never conclude whether it was solely me, my evaluation or the misunderstanding of my intended position that was at fault. Throughout the period that I was employed, I had a very poor relationship with colleagues that were above me in status. 


I simply was not one of them in personal interests or outlook. I would prefer to go home and be with my family rather than to sit consuming alcohol in the boardroom on a Friday night.


I must admit, I was granted a lot of freedom to introduce or change things but there was a complete lack of comradeship. I cannot claim that I enjoyed an aura of happiness about me but I felt fulfilled by what I achieved.


It is probable that my INTJ personality had much to do with it. I am nevertheless sceptical of the fact that we can all fit into precise categories. At the same time, I am obliged to agree that looking back at my life experiences, at school and various social situations there is a strong correlation. I have always dwelt, to some degree, in a foreign universe with my atypical and diverse interests. 


I was standing in the street alongside one of my male staff. He turned to me pointing to an open window, he remarked that he could climb through the window including between the burglar bars. I doubted that although I admit that the bars were further apart than usual.


After encouraging him to show me, he scaled the window and slithered inside between the bars. I had always noticed that many of my Indian staff were very slightly built. In my ignorance, I had always assumed that it was common for those particular people to have that build. 


Was it something to do with poor nutrition in their early years, I wondered? I thereupon set about asking each of them if they had eaten before travelling to work. The majority had not eaten and some had consumed a cup of coffee.


Thinking that it was probably a contributory cause of picking errors, I arranged for a small tub of ProNutro to be consumed by all upon arrival at the warehouse. 


Pronutro consists of proteins that are easily digestible. It contains 18 essential vitamins and minerals, all that is needed to keep one going. The project was well received and appreciated. This initial project led to an area being set aside for formal eating and relaxation. Eventually, as the staff grew, cooked meals were provided.



Since change is thought to unshackle one’s creative energy, I was rummaging about the warehouse one day looking for something with which I could revitalise the world. I came across a stack of unfamiliar boxes. Being inquisitive, I opened one of the boxes and found it to be full of bulk vitamin tablets.


It felt like finding treasure on a deserted beach. How did these get here? They were not part of our customary stock. I made some cautious enquiries but was unable to find a credible reason for their presence.


Since they were so clouded in mystery, I suggested that we bottle them and promote them as our range of vitamin supplements. It was agreed,  so I set about designing labels and promotional material. I could not understand why some of them were such obscure and unfamiliar supplements like Lecithin.


I engaged a young advertising consultant and together we devised a label and strategy. He suggested we call the range “Suntime Vitamins” and each variant to have a bright, distinctive colour. The idea was that they would be mood-elevating and that they would stand out on a pharmacy shelf.


I thought the idea was stunning! It was met with mediocrity and could not be used unless other directors agreed. I showed it around but it was similarly met with indifference. 

Back in the office, I concluded that I could not go on like this, either give it up or leave it to someone else. Someone had to make a decision and I did, regardless of the consequences.


My consultant engaged a cartoonist who designed a range of small images for media advertising along with slogans like, “Have you had yours today…?”


I sponsored a large sports gathering at a central park along with young models from a local agency. The girls wore a Suntime sash across their shoulders and were told to mix with the crowd. 


On that day, I never met a customer, board member or colleague, they were all informed of the meeting. Back in the office, the next day, no comment was made.


Sales continued to grow slowly, it needed someone with the knowledge to visit customers and encourage them, especially for the lesser-known supplements. The project was finally given to another party in Johannesburg who renamed the range Alpha-Vitamins using dark rust coloured labels.


I heard nothing more about the vitamins, I assume they just faded away.


Shortly after our new data processing manager joined us, a new IBM System 36 computer arrived. I knew nothing of the impending change, I should have anticipated it. He was not a programmer, so what was he going to do with himself?


The new equipment was not lacking in its ability to provide for our needs, there must have been some prior preparation. The equipment was set up to replace the old machine with 10 monitors lined up on a bench in a spare room. 


The formidable monitors looked like 10 savage one-eyed cyclops just waiting for the signal to devour anyone in sight. 

It was all very new to us. The original knitting circle of ladies headed for the nearest exit, each proclaiming, ”I’ll have none of that!!”.


In a hurry, we had to train new staff for customer orders . A selection of possible candidates were selected from the warehouse staff. Just as well we had instituted a competency evaluation. I doubt that we would have found any within the original staff.


The chosen ladies tackled the challenge with enthusiasm. A non-threatening system was set up for them to practice and learn. 


All that heralded the end of the punched card era with their clutter and mess. Our world changed very rapidly from that point. The fax machine replaced the telex and before long customers were transmitting orders via an attachment to the telephone. The volume of sales and the pressure on the warehouse was escalating.


We were undergoing rapid change now. Many old established pharmacies had closed or disappeared. They were either poorly located or had been replaced by more modern supermarket concepts.  It was as I had anticipated when I worked in London in 1959. It was now early 1980 and computers were becoming commonplace.


And so it came to pass…


Our DP Manager unexpectedly lurched clumsily through the door of my office clutching a large cardboard box. “I’ve just received this desktop computer on loan, I thought you might like to tinker with it”, he said, while stripping it of its packaging. There it was, just as I had seen on my visit to the conference in America. Together, we explored it while mindlessly stumbling and tramping around on the discarded polystyrene blocks.


I recalled being advised by one of our directors, after my visit to the conference in America, that I should “Just relax, computers would never materialise here, no one could afford or even understand one”.


This was a “Radio Shack” computer. Radio Shack was a division of the Tandy Corporation in America. Bill Gates appeared in a Tandy 2000 computer advertisement in 1985 extolling the virtues of his newest software product, MS Windows. “Tandy 2000 systems start at $2999”, the advertisement stated, “Come in today and see what you have been missing”.


Using the handbook and information I managed to glean, I wrote a program from scratch in Basic language for use in a pharmacy. It did not take long, it was very primitive. No ‘bells or whistles’ just the ‘basics’. It could record a prescription, save it and print labels. Given the price of the products used, it could calculate the dispensed price including addition for broken bulk.


As always it was met with a pessimistic expectation. The Charman queried whether anything worthwhile could come from a ‘RadioShack’. Before returning the machine it was decided to enlist a person in Johannesburg to develop it further. 


It was expected that I should make an occasional visit to Johannesburg to advise. I never met the person nor did I ever oblige. 

I have no idea of what became of the project, I concluded that if I could do it why should someone else not be able to do it too.


The greatest mistake I made was not to follow the computer back to the lender and make a new life for myself. Considering the volume of prescriptions dispensed today, I can safely conclude that no pharmacy could do without a computer of this nature. 


Back to the warehouse. We employed a full-time nursing sister, Cathy, to care for the wellbeing of the staff. Her duties included an interview with staff that had been absent and any persistent absence without cause was referred to me.


Cathy assisted staff that had financial difficulties and often negotiated with a creditor for more time to settle a debt. She also managed Fedics who were providing meals for the staff.

The outcome was a very contented staff who, I am sure, did their best for the wellbeing of the Company. Cathy was a great help to me along with Barbara who had worked for the business, from its conception almost 40 years earlier.


Barbara could undertake any challenge and deal with it effectively. She often worked long hours just to provide support for me. Unfortunately, Barbara enjoyed little recognition for her efforts from our colleagues. Both women were aware of the tensions and always provided an understanding assessment of the day to day pressures. They provided me with much-needed support, by not having them to talk to, I am not sure that I would have stayed too long.


Simply, for the sake of a perk, I would take either of them with me when I visited our branch in Northern Natal. There were times when I invited others because it was a long dreary four-hour journey each way. For no other reason, I visited the branch to engender a feeling of belonging and unity. 


My monthly visits persisted for some time until I was accosted by our CEO in a corridor and he informed me that he had received a complaint about an opinion I held about their staff. He instructed me not to have anything to do with them.


I was very relieved because I had never relished the journey and neither did I ever feel very welcome. One night the hotel security called me to inform me that all the wheels of my car had been removed. It could only have been by members of their staff.


Looking back, it is beyond me to understand how I had progressed to this status, having a certain level of authority and yet I had none. My status was never officially recognised yet I somehow naturally drifted into undertaking tasks where others had no vision.




By now, the warehouse had settled down to a relatively stable routine. We had overcome many of our shortcomings but we were still operating from the linked buildings. Operations continued as usual although clumsy and far from ideal. 


We scoured the countryside seeking a more suitable building or land that suited us, locality was paramount. Nothing we found provided access or a  location appropriate for the service we offered.


Almost by divine intervention, the building on the right of us, a general wholesaler, prepared to close down. It consisted of three floors each floor about three times the size of any one of our floors. Nothing could have been more suitable for our purposes.


There was road access to the top floor allowing for goods received to be offloaded and then filter down to operations. The first floor was ideal for administration and the ground floor perfect for operations. Nothing, but nothing, could have been better provided.


For the sake of personal interest and fulfillment, I drew a true to scale plan of the ground floor. I included an operational layout  that I considered to be the ideal.


I have no idea what progressed from that point. My drawing was not intended for anything else other than my personal interest. I may have shown it to others but it was not intended to be a proposition. 


I was accosted in the corridor, our usual venue for being redressed, and instructed to refrain from influencing the consultant that had been hired to design the materials handling floor. “The consultant was merely mirroring your ideas”, he said. I had no idea that there was a consultant, I was never introduced to one nor had I seen the person concerned.


A weird relationship that I had with my peers and for that matter with all the members of the Board. 

Life had always been the same for the past 20 years. It always seemed that it was by the divine intention that I had even been given the position or the title.


I never expected it, nor did I propose it, but my plan was allowed to evolve without alteration. It was a natural progression, the process was organised in the background and took place as we progressed. I merely managed it as it happened.


Moving an entire business of this nature into a new location is a massive undertaking. Thankfully, I had nothing to do with the administrative planning or the gutting and restoration of the old buildings. Just the operational side alone consisted of many thousands of items like small packs of tablets. 


As was expected, I organised and supervised the move. Along with Barbara and my team of floor supervisors, we moved the entire operation in about a week and without losing a days sales. Had an outside team been employed, I shudder to think of the chaos that would have ensued.


Along with our DP Manager's cooperation, we installed a printer linked to the mainframe. That would have been impossible in a remote facility. When the time came to move, we informed the computer staff of all the products we intended to move as a batch.


As soon as one of our delivery vans became available, we quickly assembled the batch we had prepared and sent it next door.  The goods were then hurriedly installed on the shelves. All orders for those products printed on the alternative printer were picked, packed and merged within a delivery.


The operation proceeded faultlessly and smoothly. I am awed by the progression of what had taken place from the initial seeking of an alternative building. I am aware that there may be readers eager to tell me that, "Oh, that was just coincidence". But when I reflect upon all that has transpired and all the mini coincidences that we're necessary, I would be hard-pressed to be persuaded that there was not an element of divine intervention.


Following the move to the new building, there is no question that all looked very good. The administrative suite was impressive, including a plush board room and offices. There was a large conference room, a canteen area and a modern kitchen. 


From an operational point of view, it was perfect. Everything was flowing correctly and needed little supervision. It was as though I had made myself redundant. The senior staff on the operations floor had walkie-talkies improving coordination and considerably aiding the thruput of work.


The top floor, divided into two, served to dispatch customer orders and to receive incoming goods. Two long mechanical conveyors connected the top floor with the two lower floors one up to dispatch and the other down. 


The cost of the conveyors and the picking racks was minimal as I used all the old equipment. It was a matter of hurriedly dismantling the old and reconstructing as we progressed in the new location.


I am still left staggered by the way everything was so precisely and naturally coordinated. Sailor, one of my trusted team, excelled himself and did a magnificent job putting it all together. I had trained Sailor some years before to be our handyman and carpenter.


Installation of the conveyors gave me many anxious moments. They had to be at a precise gradient to avoid goods tumbling—openings in a heavily-reinforced floor were necessary. Armed with my high school trigonometry, I marked out the position for the holes. The conveyor had to start at a precise location and height from the floor then end on the ground floor at the roller conveyor's beginning and height. 


I asked for my markings for the openings to be checked and verified before cutting through the concrete. Nothing happened before I came upon a team busy cutting the floor. 


Thankfully, it was a great job well done.


For me, all was not harmonious. I could sense the change; it was palpable. I could feel it and could see it. 


People changed, perceptions of status and attitudes shifted. The executive suite brought people competitively closer. Within the process of planning, the business had become more departmentally splintered fostering interdepartmental discontent. 


The delivery system, among others, was usually the scapegoat. The criticisms were frequently incorrect and resulted in friction between the CEO and myself. 


Upon one occasion, I received a lengthy handwritten rebuke following dissatisfaction about a driver. Upon investigation, I found the whole issue to be erroneous. I replied in the same way by sending a handwritten reply and suggested that I resign. That promptly drew apologies.


At times, I wondered if all these occurrences might be a means by someone to gain access to the principal office to promote self-ego and acceptance. 


Oddly, one morning while walking along a corridor, I had an uneasy feeling that all this was about to end for me. I passed the computer room door just as the senior staff were emerging from morning tea. I was never in favour of the location or the occasion. It was only a venue for scandal. Glum faced, they all passed me by, and I sensed that there was an atmosphere.


I had a gut feel that my end would be abrupt and without a justifiable reason or ceremony. 

By coincidence, I came across a media comment that a new distribution company had invited a logistics expert from Germany to assist and advise. It was just at the time that the ANC government had gained power in South Africa. It stimulated my curiosity, and I became aware of snippets of applicable information.


Finally, it came to me that some of our suppliers had a part in the new company.  I warned our CEO that it sounded threatening and that we should investigate. He considered it unimaginable and took no notice until I persisted. Together, we went to Johannesburg to interview some of our principal providers.


Over lunch, they said, "It's inconceivable, we would never do that or withhold product from you"... but they did!


Shortly after the visit, statements were being made in the press that a new company would soon be responsible for distributing pharmaceuticals, I presume countrywide. 


Comments expressed in the media were strongly unethical, especially in terms of Pharmacy Council rules. The statements and advertisements in the press continued for some time. I was especially disturbed that the Council never cautioned them. Our board members and wholesalers similar to us all had board members that were pharmacists.  I was also baffled because no one had even queried the legality of the new company's intentions.


I held my peace for it was not my problem, or so I thought. It all worked out in my favour in the end.


Being the Managing Director, I received a letter from the new distribution company. It stated that it would be the sole distributor of all the medicinal products from our principal suppliers in the future. The letter provided a commencement date and suggested we return all applicable goods to our suppliers for credit.



There was not much stock that I needed to return. Stock does not last long in a just-in-time environment, and it was not being replenished. Not being able to supply caused a ruckus. 


Perhaps I should have informed my customers but to inform them and explain the reasons would be to promote the new company. Needless to say, the new company was not geared up either, so it caused a hiatus.


Not my problem, I had no stock and could not replenish it. The new company should have informed the pharmacies concerned and have arranged to receive orders from them.


Earlier on, I had received an anonymous telephone call offering me employment at a salary of my choice. I was nearing retirement, and I had a suspicion of what was going on. I had no desire to be disloyal to my company, nor did I wish to get entangled in the ensuing tumult.


I had a good idea of who was responsible for the offer.  An independent and long-established pharmaceutical chain experiencing revenue loss aimed to introduce an independent and surreptitious distributor to 'corner' and block the market, to regain superiority and lost revenue.  


I was not invited to meetings that our CEO was having with mutual wholesalers from around the country. His aim as I understood it was to merge them into a conglomerate. I can imagine that if the chain in question had wind of it, they would see it as a threat and would need to come up with an alternative smart solution. 


At this point, I was in a predicament. I had no idea who the new company was or how they proposed to conduct their business. 


Did they have a distribution warehouse somewhere nearby?  They would need a fleet of delivery vehicles, and would it be viable with a limited range of product? Is their operation countrywide, or were we the only target? 

Is it possible that they will negotiate with other of our suppliers and increase their range? They had made a bad start, obviously unprepared.


Many of my experienced staff are long-serving and loyal. Who and how many should I dismiss? If this new business should turn out to be unacceptable or unworkable, will I be left short of staff?


From my perspective, the future may be bleak, very bleak! On the other hand, they may lack the expertise; there are not too many Glyn Kearneys about. 


If our management knew anything about it, they did not inform me. That was the norm; I had perceived authority but lacked the requisite powers or feed-back. 


For some reason unknown to me or anyone else, the CEO summoned all senior staff to the board room. He was on the telephone at the time, so we all accumulated at the board room door. That in itself was unusual; it was customary for us all to enter the room and find a seat.


While standing at the door, one of our team announced that we should stay silent during the meeting. To talk or reply would carry a risk of dismissal.


All was going well until our young security officer sitting next to the CEO responded to something that the CEO  said. I saw the CEO stiffen up. Our security officer was not wrong, and I attempted to defend him. With that, the CEO abruptly stood up and clumsily left the room.


The next morning, I had barely made contact with my office chair's seat when the CEO entered. He arrived red in the face and just about to explode. He stood leaning forward against my desk, fists clenched while exhibiting aggressive body language. I was thankful that there was a desk between us. 


He announced that he was sick and tired of me and that I should say farewell to my friends and be gone by 4 pm. I watched him march away like a victorious Roman General on a White Horse. I called after him, "You will never find another Glyn Kearney." I don't know what he expected me to do, perhaps to stumble after him begging mercy? At least, for once, we understood and agreed with each other.


There was simply no justification for the expulsion. Leaving the warehouse keys on my desk, I prepared to leave. I began to remove my nameplate from the door when I decided to allow it to remain; it would serve to 'smile' at him each time he passed.  I thereupon bolted for the exit never to return.


I was not significantly distressed by the termination of my career. After leaving the warehouse, I sat at the Durban Beachfront and watched the waves rolling in. I needed time to be alone and recover my peace. 


On my way home, I called in to see our company accountant at his office to tell him what had happened. He and his partner thought it amusing; they had experienced a similar event. "Now you will be ostracised by everybody", they said, and they were not wrong. 


Any status I may have had was gone, I was nothing. It was as though the past 25 years of my life had just vanished—in an instant, something like a soap bubble that popped, leaving nothing behind. 


I was very much alone, and I felt it. Any friends I might have had apart from Barbara and Cathy had vanished along with the bubble.


Before leaving, I met with Barbara and Cathy, together with a couple of the warehouse supervisory staff. I thanked them for past support. I warned them that they would experience a similar event despite having been with the business for over 40 years.


For weeks, I had predicted my dismissal even to the fact that it would be without ceremony. Needless to say that it was a relief not to be responsible or involved in the coming tumult.


There was a mysterious atmosphere that descended upon the business. Something changed; it was beyond me to interpret. Was it stress, confusion or simply self-doubt on behalf of our CEO? Perhaps I was seen as a threat that resulted in the suppression of my participation.


Whatever it was, I never went near the place again. I believe that things became exceedingly despairing before they recovered. 


Perhaps Mike Hemming or Frances Engelbrecht might like to give a summary of the events that followed. 


However, I was not alone. I had a personal mentor that might convince my readers that there was an element of divine intention.



Shortly before leaving, I  attended a travel agent meeting as a Travel Africa representative. There was a lucky draw at the end of the session, and I was the lucky winner.


The prize consisted of a visit to a very remote game ranch on a date of my choice. It involved motoring to Johannesburg and from there a rather lengthy flight in a light aircraft. 


I decided that it was just the experience that Myrtle and I needed to escape and take our minds off the current stressful situation.


It was a long flight initially over valleys and gullies and finally typical African savannah with scattered thorn trees. While in the air, there was nothing to be seen except the typical unending African shrubbery. We landed on a rough makeshift airstrip before being transported to the lodge. 


 We had not realised the remarkably concealed lodge was even there. Being the kind of visitors we were, we immediately boarded a game viewing vehicle. Along with other visitors, we had a short ride while viewing the game.


Finally, we stopped next to a vast spherical boulder. It was massive, at least three stories high. Fascinated, I walked around to the back and found that the wind had built a bridge to the top. Standing on the top, I could see for miles around. There were no similar boulders to be seen anywhere near us.


As I was about to leave, a German lady joined me. While chatting, she explained that she was the wife of a logistics expert. He was to oversee the formation of a pharmaceutical distribution company that was soon to commence. I was shocked and left awestruck.


Could all this be real? Was I suffering a hallucination? Did I travel this great distance to stand on top of a massive boulder in the wilderness to receive confirmation of divine collaboration? 


The size of the boulder, the access, the timing and the messenger are all significant. Where else might all four be coordinated and brought together at the same moment?


8 February 2012


When it comes to having an experience like my massive boulder encounter, I tend to take it as a solemn confirmation of divine intention. It is not the first time in my life that I have had exceptional experiences. Usually, when I try to share an experience of this nature with another, it is not uncommon for the response to be, "Oh, it is only a coincidence". 


In reality, by examining the circumstances or mini coincidences necessary for it to happen, it has to be more than a chance coincidence for the main event to occur. 


Earlier, I had described how I had travelled an extensive distance in a light aircraft to a remote game ranch. Standing on a large boulder while viewing game, I met a German lady who joined me. While chatting, she explained that she was the wife of a logistics expert. He was to oversee the formation of a pharmaceutical distribution company. Apparently, the one that was soon to disrupt the job I had just abandoned.


The chances of that encounter were as remote and unlikely as the boulder itself. Soon after that experience, Myrtle and I visited Peter and Fiona in Sydney, Australia. While there, we were taken to a communal barbecue in a public recreation area. There were numerous people all with fires going, I was standing next to a fire chatting to one of Peter's friends.


While knawing on a piece of chorizo sausage, I was asked about what I did for a living, the usual small talk. I explained how a particular startup company had made incursions to our specific field of service. He raised his eyebrows in response, "Oh yes", he said. " Was involved in the setup of that company, "I facilitated their meetings''.


There again, I was met with divine confirmation as if to say, "I've  not finished with you yet!"


Thank you, Peter, for posting the document written by Matthew Shultz. I have to admit that it seems to be a fascinating and accurate account of my personality type and situation.  


Matthew mentioned that in the case of peculiar characteristics that persistently defy the standard order, it would almost certainly resort to hobbling and maiming to the incapacity point.


He quoted, "Uncommonness is the single-most commonly censured human characteristic".


He wrote, "Suppose the uniqueness is suppressed and manoeuvred to conform, then be prepared for efforts, talents, and struggles to go largely unappreciated".


Matthew went on to say that if the eccentric behaviour proved too exceptional to eradicate or contain, it is forcibly "broken in" and primed for destruction.  The standard order is definitively ill-equipped to tolerate the unconventional. 

 

I was not overly disturbed by the ejection from my job. I had nothing to lose except for my honour. It was not my business, and I had nothing to lose or gain from its growth or value. Although I was a quasi director, I had no status, no pharmacy, no investment in the company; it was just a job. 


There is a saying that, "we grow too soon old and too late wise". Astonishingly, I have had to grow to my age before being enlightened. The account of the situation is certainly to the point. 


I carry no grudge; I had a feeling of fulfilment. If anything, I am grateful that I had the opportunity to be involved as I was. The "climate" prevailed almost from the day I joined the company. 


I had little to do with the company after my departure in 1996. Shortly before I left, the company changed its name to Alpha Pharm. At the time, a few pharmaceutical wholesalers scattered around South Africa had a similar structure that involved distributing profits back to participating customers.


Alpha Pharm went through a series of ups and downs after I left. In 2014  the South African Competition Commission approved a merger of similar wholesalers into a single company.


A Swiss firm, Shogun Holdings und Finanz contributed an R350 million investment for a 51 per cent shareholding toward the merger. At the same time, the participating 920 pharmacies held the remaining 49 percent. 


I had little to do with the company after my departure in 1996. Shortly before I left, the company changed its name to Alpha Pharm. At the time, a few pharmaceutical wholesalers scattered around South Africa had a similar structure that involved distributing profits back to participating customers.


Alpha Pharm went through a series of ups and downs after I left. In 2014  the South African Competition Commission approved a merger of similar wholesalers into a single company.


A Swiss firm, Shogun Holdings und Finanz contributed an R350 million investment for a 51 per cent shareholding toward the merger. At the same time, the participating 920 pharmacies held the remaining 49 per cent. 


Headquartered in Zurich, Switzerland, the Shogun Holding Und Finanz AG provides investment services.


There is no doubt that the Swiss company's investment and the merger had a rejuvenating effect on retail pharmacy and the wholesaling service.


There is no doubt that the Swiss company's investment and the merger had a rejuvenating effect on retail pharmacy and the wholesaling service.